The city stretched out below him, a vast expanse of lights and concrete, filled with the constant hum of life. But up here, on the rooftop of their apartment building, all of that noise faded into the background. The only sounds were the gentle rustling of the wind and the occasional creak of the old metal roof beneath him.
Ethan sat on the edge of the rooftop, his legs hanging loosely over the side. He held a small ceramic pot in his hands, fingers wrapped carefully around its edges. The pot, though simple, was cracked in a few places from the years it had spent in his care. But the plant inside it—the plant that had been her favorite—still thrived. Its tiny, delicate flowers bloomed in vibrant colors, reminding Ethan of her smile, the way her eyes lit up when she talked about it.
He stared at the flowers for a long time, his mind adrift in memories. The wind caught the scent of the blooms, and for a brief moment, it felt as though she were right there with him, her presence filling the empty space around him. It was as if the wind carried pieces of her, whispers of the past that never truly left.
His heart ached with the weight of it all. It had been two years since she had passed, but the grief still gripped him, sometimes stronger than others. The loneliness of living without her was something he hadn’t quite learned how to live with. The apartment they had once shared was quieter now, the silence echoing through the rooms, a constant reminder of the life they had built together. He hadn’t been able to bring himself to change anything. The pictures on the walls, her favorite books still lined up neatly on the shelf—everything was as it had been the day she was gone.
“Lila,” Ethan whispered softly, his voice breaking as he spoke her name. “I miss you so much.”
The wind picked up, sending a soft shiver through his body, but it also brought with it the scent of her flowers. For a moment, he closed his eyes and leaned back, the weight of his grief lifting just slightly as he let the memories wash over him.
He remembered the first time he had given her that plant. It had been her birthday, and he had found the plant at a local market. It wasn’t much—just a small, potted flower with soft petals—but when she had seen it, her face had lit up, and her smile had been enough to make him feel like the luckiest man in the world. She had named it “Sunshine,” a fitting name for something that bloomed so brightly in her care.
After she passed, Ethan had kept it alive, watering it every day, making sure it got enough sunlight. It had become a kind of ritual for him—his small way of keeping her with him, even after she was gone.
His phone buzzed in his pocket, snapping him out of his reverie. He pulled it out, glancing at the screen. It was a message from his sister, Kate.
“Hey, I know today’s hard, but how about we get together later? Dinner?”
Ethan hesitated for a moment, his thumb hovering over the screen. He wasn’t sure if he was ready to face anyone today. The thought of socializing, even with Kate, made him feel like retreating further into the quiet of his own thoughts. But he knew she was just trying to help, trying to pull him out of his solitude.
He typed back quickly, his fingers stiff.
“I’m not sure. I just want to be alone for now.”
He didn’t want to drag her into his grief. He didn’t want to explain again how much he missed Lila, how every day felt like a struggle to move on. He wasn’t ready to let anyone in.
The phone buzzed again almost immediately.
“I understand. Just know I’m here for you whenever you need me. Love you.”
Ethan put the phone down beside him, a sigh escaping his lips. His sister was the only one who had tried to keep him connected to the world after Lila died. She called, she sent texts, she invited him out, but every time, he pulled back, preferring to stay in the silence of their apartment, holding onto the memories of his wife like fragile, precious things that no one else could understand.
He looked down at the plant in his hands again. “I’m sorry, Sunshine,” he said, his voice thick with emotion. “I didn’t want to forget you, not like this. I didn’t want to move on without you.”
The plant seemed to sway slightly in the breeze, as if responding to his words. Ethan couldn’t help but laugh softly, even though the sound was empty and hollow. He’d always thought there was something almost magical about the way Lila had cared for this plant. She had always been so gentle with it, so careful, and in return, it had flourished under her care. Now, he was the one trying to keep it alive, though he knew he wasn’t as good at it as she had been.
“I don’t even know how you did it,” he whispered, shaking his head. “I can barely take care of myself, let alone this little thing.”
The wind seemed to carry a soft whisper back to him, a fleeting reminder that Lila was still there in the small things, in the air, in the memories they had shared. Ethan closed his eyes again, and for a moment, it felt like he could hear her voice, like she was standing beside him, laughing at his inability to keep the plant alive as well as she had.
“Ethan, you’re doing your best,” she would have said. “That’s all anyone can do.”
He smiled at the thought, the memory of her words comforting him in the quiet of the evening.
As the sun sank lower, casting a warm, amber glow across the city, Ethan made a decision. He gently placed the photo of Lila in the grass next to him and stood up, stretching his stiff muscles. He glanced down at the plant in his hands and then back at the empty apartment door behind him. He could feel her presence, still so strong, urging him to move forward.
“I’ll keep taking care of you,” he said softly to the plant. “For you, Lila. For us.”
He carried the plant back inside, setting it gently on the windowsill where it could get the most sunlight. For the first time in a long while, he felt a sense of peace. It wasn’t much, but it was enough for now.
Later that evening, Kate sent another message. This time, Ethan didn’t hesitate. He typed out a reply:
“Okay. I’ll come over. Let’s do dinner.”
And for the first time in months, Ethan felt like he might just be ready to face the world again.
As he prepared himself to leave the rooftop, his gaze shifted to the plant one last time. In that quiet moment, it felt like Lila was still with him, like she was still guiding him, even from beyond the grave. Ethan took a deep breath, whispering softly, “I’ll always love you, Lila.”
And with that, he stepped out into the world, the memories of his wife and the little plant he had vowed to care for forever tucked safely in his heart.